In retrospect to a suicide wish

If I had ever succeeded in those days when the spiraling downward had stopped...at the bottom, in ending my life, it would have been such a tragedy...in retrospect. I became indifferent, lost, sunk into despair...who knew that it was temporary? I wonder about those who succeed...lost souls...but then I think about the ones who live their entire lives in little worlds surrounded by tall walls that have been constructed around them by themselves and circumstance w/out a window to see the stars and beyond...that's the real tragedy. I am waking up....I can see the stars....