my calling

i feel i've been searching for this for so long, never satisified with anything because I know there's something more important coming. I'm taking Political Theology and getting a lot out of it. Today I had a light go off. I'm interested in Religion (enormously) and even more in spirituality and philosophy. I have found that I am talented when it comes to teaching, though it can be boring and requires a lot of patience. I'm also very drawn to writing. I see we have a dilemma in our country where separation of church and state are concerned and there are issues about teaching "religion" in school. I am extremely interested in politics (my major). I think that it can all be tied together...I have some things I'm going to check into as well as talking to professors for suggestions, but I see a "there" I want to get to...finally.

Tumultuous

I admit this to my soul: Like Israelites longing for Egypt, the land that oppressed them, I hear the songs of their now unbeating hearts. I pine for a love that grounds me, though one that afflicts and chains me. A thing that weighs me down snuffing out my light and sucking out my breath. This persistent desire makes a slave of me. When a vision of liberation flashes before me, boiling beneath my skin, a gripping fear of the unknown halts then paralyzes. I crawl back into my cage, self-defeated, pulling the door closed behind me. My captor turns the lock and I kiss his feet through the iron. He grabs me up by the hair, my face pressed into the bars, and nuzzles me gently. Black bitterness engulfs my heart flooding it with rage. I cling to him and repress the seething in my chest. Left to burn silently until it might dissipate.

me?

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