Poem: "Mixed Up"

Unorganized neat freak can't stand the mess but can't keep it clean. Weak me, strong me no in-between? Lazy, but don't want to be. Backstabbing and betrayal or another excuse? They don't care or I don't care, which is worse? How much is too much? What's the cost of happiness? Serious Mysterious Cautious Sensitive Defensive Intense Bad Attitude Rude. Too good or not good enough? Feel weak, but try to act tough. Burn every bridge or hold on too long. Don't wanna be weak, but hard to be strong. Internalize, but can't keep my mouth shut! I talk, but never really open up. I think I'm really mixed up!